Posted by
laeva65 on Monday, June 25, 2007 3:23:18 PM
Now it begins to get serious. For the last month I've been telling everyone I know that June 26 is when I will enter St. Luke's Hospital in Phoenix to have my left knee replaced.
That day is tomorrow. Funny, I don't feel too many butterflies. A couple of hours ago I had about 5 seconds of panic and then it went away. To me, that means I'm ready. I've come down this road before, only to call it off or see problems develop that prevented me from having the surgery. On those occasions, High Anxiety was my emotional state.
The last time, I was on the table, getting my leg shaved when they saw from a readout of my vitals that I was in total panic mode and so they said. "No surgery today." I said, "That's a sign. I'm going home."
I had the right knee replaced 10 years ago, and it was a real ordeal. I'm pretty pain tolerant, but this was ridiculous. Still, I wished the doctor had agreed to do both knees at once but he wouldn't do it. Lemme tell ya: If you ever find yourself in a position where you need knee or hip replacements, if you need them both done have them both done at the same time. It will be a harder rehab but when it is over it will be OVER. You won't have another one staring at you as I do.
How did I get into this situation? Some guys inherit $50 million like my buddy CG; others inherit trust funds and large houses. My legacy from my mom was arthritis. See we were poor, but we liked to share with one another. From my dad, I got my tendency to be overweight. From dear old ma, I got the ar-thur-i-tis.
To keep myself fit, I fell into the running craze of the '70s and '80s. It was great. There was nothing like going out and doing 4 or 5 miles on a bright clear morning. The buzz was awesome. In the late '80s, the knees started howling, and by '91 I was injuring myself when I tried to run.
I have totally the wrong bone structure to be a runner. I have the bones of a farm animal. Huge, massive bones. To be successful at it you need the bones of a bird, like my friend Pam who runs the Boston Marathon each year. She probably carries 110 lbs. on a frame of about 5-foot-7. She glides. I plodded. Hence my problem.
What finally got me to turn my head around and commit eagerly to this surgery? It had an awful lot to do with our men and women coming back from Iraq and Afghanistan, missing limbs, having left a full measure of their devotion in the streets of Fallujah or on a road in Baghdad. What got to me was their attitudes. What they wanted more than anything was to be back with their units. Once they were fitted with a prosthetic, they figured they could learn how to move well enough to rejoin the fight.
Seeing that made me embarrassed. I felt like a coward. I saw how gung-ho these kids were and I said to myself, "I want some of that."
Well, tomorrow morning I'm going to start on that road. I probably won't be posting for a week, but I'll get back at it as soon as I can.